[The Decolonizing Medicine Podcast S01E01. Original release date: May 26, 2021]
Mabuhay! You are listening to the Decolonizing Medicine Podcast. We will be exploring the intersection of decolonization and healing work with Black and Brown practitioners involved in a variety of modalities. I am your host, Jamee Pineda recording from Piscataway territory otherwise known as Baltimore, Maryland. My ancestry is mostly Tagalog and some Chinoy, but I was raised here on Turtle Island. I'm also a queer non-binary trans person and a practitioner of Hilot and Chinese medicine. During each episode I will be interviewing different healing practitioners, but since this is our very first episode, I've decided to tell you a little bit more about my background and also answer some questions that I've gotten from folks in my community through social media and also some other groups that I'm a part of.
So I got into healing work I think the same way a lot of other folks have gotten into healing work and that was through work burnout, specifically non-profit work burnout. I was working in a very toxic environment that ended up making me really sick and the ways that I was able to get my health back on track and eventually leave that position and make some major changes in my life was to experience community acupuncture for the first time and this was really important to me because it was a medicine that I could financially afford at the time. I didn't have health insurance, and it was really accessible and my body was very responsive to it. And eventually that first-hand experience as a patient brought about my own career shift from doing this more administrative nonprofit work into doing healing work for my own communities.
As I was going through school, through Chinese medicine school, this eventually brought me back again towards my ancestral practices. Years after graduating from acupuncture school, I was able to crowdfund money from my community to go to the Philippines and actually study my ancestral medicine there which was a really amazing experience 1) to be held by people who were valuing this medicine as much as I was and to do it in a way that was super interdependent and community-based and then 2) to actually go there and work with my teachers one-on-one. This happened right before the pandemic hit so it was a unique experience and even rare experience knowing now what I do about the pandemic and the timing of that.
For those of you who don't know Hilot is the name of the ancestral medicine from the Philippines, but that being one of the most language diverse places in the world there are many names for different for different kinds of healing practitioners in the Philippines and different kinds of modalities within within those kinds of medicines. So in the tradition that I was trained in, we practice Hilot Binabaylan. "Binabaylan" means one who walks the path of babaylan. Babaylan is a term for one of those healers other terms that are used that are specific to different languages and regions include mombaki, also catalonan, so again, a super diverse area, there's many different ways to practice this medicine depending on who your family is, what your lineage is, and who is training you.
So now I'd love to move on to some of the questions that folks sent to me through social media and a few other networks that I'm on. I thought it'd be more fun to hear what people actually wanted to learn about than to just, you know, talk about myself forever. The first question I have is, "What inspired you to create this podcast?" Well, I think this is pretty typical of a lot of decolonizing work and a lot of anti-colonial work or activism in general, I guess. I created this podcast because this is material that I want to know about. This is material that I want to learn. I wasn't really seeing that in the particular format I wanted, that I would feel most comfortable interacting with. So, the reason I chose podcast versus other kinds of media is that, you know, we're living through a pandemic right now and people are doing a lot more things virtually. Their faces are right in the screen all the time and I needed to do something for myself and also, um, for people that I wanted to interact with that wasn't going to be so screen-based. So that's one reason I thought it was a little healthier, maybe, than adding more content that needed to be accessed through a screen the whole time. I also know that there's a lot that I don't know. So this podcast is designed around bringing other folks into this conversation and learning from them. So I know, you know, some about my own work around Chinese medicine and Hilot, but I don't know what it's like in other modalities. I want to hear other people's experiences. I want this platform to be something that uplifts a lot of different voices, not just my own.
The second question that I have is, "What do you mean when you use the word 'decolonization'?" Decolonization, I think, can mean a lot of different things to a lot of different people. The way that I relate to it is understanding the effects of colonization in this context, specifically on medicine. So what happened to traditional and ancestral medicines after colonization happened, and or after colonization happened? That's, I guess that's a really watered-down way of saying it, but after there were invasions and violence and systemic oppression. So what happened to our medicine and how can we reclaim that within our modern context? So the way that I relate to decolonization is not about going to our ancient practices and replicating them as purely as possible. I don't think that that is - one, I don't think that's possible and two, it's not about that kind of purity, or authenticity, or correctness. It's about taking those ancestral practices into our modern context and using them and trying to take colonial control out of them and that happens on many different levels. I mean that happens with our minds first of all. How has colonization affected how we think about things? How we relate to ourselves and others and our medicine? It also impacts who gets to access medicine, who gets to learn it, who gets to receive it, who gets to keep that knowledge. It also impacts how we live in our bodies, who gets to be well. It impacts which kinds of medicine we are valuing over other kinds of medicine. So for example, there's lots of BIPOC who would love to do traditional medicines more than allopathic medicines, and I've heard this a lot, but they can't afford it. They can only afford whatever doctor visits or prescriptions they can get through Medicaid. So medicine that exists within a context of Capitalism, that's something to explore with decolonization as well. f
I'm coming up on my third question here, "What do you find most hopeful about this work? What is it that gets you out of bed in the morning?" I am really hopeful about this work and excited about this work because there is so much work happening right now around decolonization. There are so many practitioners out there who are reclaiming ancestral medicine. I don't know if it's just me, but it seems like just watching what people were putting out on social media during the pandemic, I saw a lot of people really reaching back to their roots trying to understand what their ancestors did during times of crisis, trying to get in touch with their spirituality. We couldn't go out so we went in, right? So I think that we're at a pivotal moment where we can really shift things around medicine and our access to it and how we relate to it. Also, I mean I gotta say being in a modern age where we have all of this digital connectivity means I have much more access to people doing this kind of work all over the place. We might be physically isolating from each other, but virtually we're more connected than ever and I find that really inspiring.
And my fourth question here is, "What does it mean to you and your practice and what will be coming out of this podcast?" For me and my practice this is an opportunity to learn and deepen my understanding around decolonizing work by talking to other people, building relationships, and hearing their stories. I hope that people who are listening to this podcast will find similar things from it. I hope that they'll be able to connect to their own ancestral practices and understand what they've inherited from their ancestors. I mean this for all folks, BIPOC or not, because we all inherit something, right? Like, some of us inherit privilege. Some of us inherit generational trauma. Some of us will inherit knowledge. There is so much there that our ancestors have to tell us and teach us that I think will change how we relate to each other and help us build something better. I hope that this podcast is really going to function as a way for all of us BIPOC to uplift each other in our work. Another reason why I decided to do a podcast is, you know, as much as Instagram and Facebook and all these different kinds of social media can be really helpful, it's hard to stay relevant on it. You're constantly having to post and it takes a lot of energy to do that and it's very visual-oriented and it doesn't give a lot of room for deeper conversation, for longer, more expansive content. So this is a different kind of platform where I can do that. I can have a deeper conversation with someone that's not just a meme or not just a really fancy photo. I love memes and fancy photos, but let's get a little bit deeper than that. In addition to the conversations that me and the guests are going to be having with each other, I also would like to highlight an organization or an individual doing work within the BIPOC community to uplift them. So I want to - I'm hoping that this platform will also help to redistribute some resources to folks who might not be getting as much visibility as they need because you know really like how can I not be engaging in mutual aid here. I might be the one hosting this podcast, but this is about community. This is about interdependence, not about that colonial capitalist white supremacist idea of us existing as individuals and elevating ourselves as individuals within our work. That is not actually what's happening. It's not realistic. It's not culturally relevant for me and that's just not my values.
So the second to last question I have is "How do you feel about people using the term 'witch doctor'?" You know, I don't know that I necessarily have a feeling about that because it's not a term that I use for myself. I think that witch doctor is a very culturally specific term and I don't think that people outside of that culture really should be using it much like "shaman". Okay, I know that "shaman" is a term that's thrown around a lot and it does have a very specific cultural origin in Siberia. So I think that it is good to be careful about language and how we're using it and who it comes from and to not claim something that isn't ours. Yeah, neutral feelings about witch doctor, but it's also not my term.
The last question that I have is, "Do you have any resources you can recommend for white practitioners who wish to offer reparations in their clinical practice?" So this is actually a question I have encountered in various forms multiple times, especially in the last year. What I have to say about that is maybe a little bit uncomfortable and it's that I'm not gonna actually. I don't actually feel like listing specific resources and here's why. I am bombarded with resources and content on the daily through social media, through word-of-mouth,
through different forms of other media content like podcasts and newsletters and all kinds of stuff, so I don't actually think that there's a shortage of resources around how to offer reparations. There's no voiceless people here. People are very loud and clear about what their communities need. I'm going to turn that question around and actually say what is going on with how you consume information where you can't, for some reason, you're not receiving that information. I hope that makes sense. I'm not trying to be flippant about it, but what is going on that those BIPOC voices are not being centered because I can't even keep up with the amount of literature that I would like to read and the amount of things that I would like to know. There's just so much content out there.
My suggestion is to maybe, you know, reorient or re-center whose media you're consuming. What would it look like if for a month you only consumed podcasts, audio, movies on Netflix, like all kinds of media, what if you only consumed media that was made by BIPOC about BIPOC, right? It's not just you can read a book or a scholarly article and all of a sudden you understand all these things. You have to do a pretty big cultural shift. You have to re-center all of those voices. I don't really understand why people aren't receiving that information because it's definitely out there. I think that also offering reparations involves giving up power, giving up resources, and really examining what kind of privilege someone has and how they're taking up space.
So, I'm in the acupuncture and Chinese medicine world in the U.S. and there's a lot of white folks who had zero response to the folks who were murdered in Atlanta, Georgia recently. Our professional organization, it still has oriental medicine in the name. There wasn't any response from the professional organizations as well and it's not that hard, right? It's redistributing resources, uplifting folks that need it. It's not as complicated, like, if you're benefiting from someone else's culture, one should you be doing that? I mean, some places, some cultures have an open system, but either way negotiate consent with that regularly because consent should be something that is ongoing. And two, if you are a guest in that culture and you are benefiting from it, make sure you're doing regular reciprocity around that benefit. Donate money, donate resources like time, relationships.
If you're, if you're in, I'm just using my profession as an example because I know it better, why aren't there more scholarships for BIPOC? Why aren't there really any scholarships to go to acupuncture school? It kind of boggles my mind. Like, what about folks that have been incarcerated for a really long time under false charges? I'm talking specifically about Dr. Mutulu Shakur who was instrumental in putting the NADA protocol together to help treat addiction in the Bronx. That NADA protocol gets used everywhere in the U.S., but are we also working to get him free as a profession? Probably not as hard as we could. So there is just, there are so many ways to do reparations it's more of an issue of just pick one that you can do that's accessible to you. Tap into your local community. See what's happening there and what they need. Support people who are already doing that work especially if they're BIPOC. A lot of us are doing this work for free and it kind of sucks, but go out and support them, hit up their Patreons, do whatever.
And I also want to point out that I don't want our suffering as Black and Brown people to be the main focus of everything, right? Like, we are a lot more than our suffering. We also have a multiplicity of experiences that includes joy. So you can, you know, do reparations by contributing to someone's joy, making sure they have luxury, making sure they have those things that make life really worth living and enjoyable. So act on all of this, right? Don't start another white person book club, please. A lot of people are posting their CashApps on social media or their Venmo or whatever. If you have the means, please contribute to those, you know? I know in the QTBIPOC community, we are definitely, like constantly, having to crowdfund a lot of basic needs. Support that and go above and beyond that. We also have needs that are not necessarily basic that we would also like to have met. I know I went off on a little bit of a tangent there, but I hope you feel me on that because I think that that's an important thing to bring up just because I keep encountering that question over and over. Thank you so much everyone who contributed to the questions and everyone who is listening here today.
Let's move on to our community shout outs. In every episode we'll be highlighting individuals or groups to redistribute some abundance to. For this episode I'd like to highlight No Justice No Pride. I've donated to them in the past and will continue to support their work. Here's a little about them from their website: No Justice No Pride, otherwise known as NJNP, is a collective of organizers and activists from across the District of Columbia. We exist to fight for trans justice and to end the LGBT "equality", equality is in quotes, LGBT "equality" movement's complicity with systems of oppression that further marginalize trans and queer individuals. Check out NJNP at www.nojusticenopride.org and send them some love. Maraming salamat for listening to the Decolonizing Medicine Podcast if you want to support this work via Patreon or apply to be a guest on the show go to linktr.ee/jameepinedahealingarts. We'll also link to this in the show notes. Music is by Amber Ojeda, Hed Kandi, and Rocky Marciano. Big thanks to Laurenellen McCann, my sweetie and fabulous audio engineer, and to all our listeners and supporters out there. Ingat!
At the end of last summer, my partner and I decided to plan a small trip to Chincoteague. We wanted to get out of the city and relax far away fro people with as many COVID precautions as we could possibly do. We had a blast in the beautiful wetlands with wild ponies and everything.
With all the outdoor adventures, my partner ended up getting covered in sunburns. I didn't have my normal pharmacy of salves, herbs, and needles with me. Since vaccines weren't available yet we were avoiding going into stores as much as possible. My partner decided to tough it out without their usual aloe after sun care.
I was sitting in the kitchen of the little studio we had rented when my gaze fell on our groceries on the counter. From nowhere I heard, “Avocado for burns.” Before my hilot initiation I might have shrugged it off, but my teachers encouraged me to listen to our plant relatives in the many ways they communicate to us. I heard it again a second time, more insistent. So, I opened up my laptop and searched, “avocados for burns”. Turns out they are a great medicinal for burns with loads of antioxidants that assist in cell repair.
I got goosebumps. I had always assumed I was disconnected from plants. First off, I am a notorious plant killer and don't have the emotional connection to plants that so many other queer millennials seem to have. Second, my herbal knowledge is almost exclusively in Chinese medicinals, formulations, and theories. To me this was a direct communication of knowledge I did not already have. While I was reading up on avocados I heard, “Honey for burns.”. Again I repeated the same process of research and confirmation.
I shared my experience with my partner and we decided to give it a go. Nothing to lose, right? I mashed the avocados and honey together and smeared it all over their body and face. From my clinical training in Chinese medicine I used the doctrine of signatures – when something in nature resembles a part of our bodies that's what is treats. “Burned” avocado skin to treat burned skin. Using water energy, even if the water is boiled, brings a cooling energy to counteract the fire from a burn. I reserved the avocado skins and pits and made a water decoction, a method of medicine-making where herbs are boiled in water.
My partner, naked and covered in green goo, drank the decoction. I crossed my fingers hoping that I didn't accidentally poison the love of my life. After a while we started noticing the redness in their skin increasing, although the pain had been somewhat soothed. The next morning their burns were completely gone. We were both amazed and extremely grateful.
Having been raised and educated in the U.S., I've been indoctrinated to only value knowledge that is rational, scientifically proven, and linear. I was not taught to value or hone my intuition and definitely not encouraged to talk to plants of spirits. I used to mourn my disconnection from ancestral practices and wisdom, but I am learning I am more connected than I thought possible. The more I practice, the more I feel the different systems of medicine, the different ways of knowing, integrating and informing how I interact with the world.
(Please note that this is not meant to be medical advice or treatment, merely a reflection of a personal experience.)
What is the first thing you think of when you hear “trans health care”? Many of us would probably say hormones, surgery, maybe even mental health therapy. This is problematic and I will explain why.
Centering gender affirming care solely on medical transition denies us the whole reality of our wellness needs. But isn't medical transition important? Of course! So is dentistry, physical therapy, oncology, and even acupuncture. Trans and gender expansive people also get back pain, diabetes, bunions, IBS, and sports injuries. We want bodywork, corrective lenses, night guards, and getting our weird moles checked out. Practitioners of all disciplines should be obligated to provide affirming and safe care to people of all genders whether or not they are assisting in medical transition.
Gender affirming care must also be actively anti-racist and anti-colonial. Colonization prioritizes white washed ideas of gender over racialized experiences. What identities, roles, and expressions did we have before colonizers attacked our ancestors? Colonizers in places like the Philippines persecuted people who did not fit European binary gender constructs. Even if we are including options beyond a gender binary, are these still framed by a white-centric experience?
So where do we go from here? Don't just start a book club and suddenly invest in cultural competency training. These are meaningless without processes for accountability and structural changes. White supremacy can show up as over-intellectualizing issues into performative ally-ship – talking the talk, but not walking the walk. Open-mindedness and invitations are not enough. They're a cover-up for structural inequities. Can you show me that you're doing the work without telling me you're doing the work? Can you do it without a DEI or values statement? When I'm seeking care I look at the relationships a practitioner has built to see who they are accountable to. Who do they redistribute resources to? I look at the language used in communications, website, social media, and intake forms. Is ally-ship stuck at pronouns are have we moved beyond that? I look to see that there is deep ongoing work rather than a shallow static checklist.
Years ago I used to collaborate with a yoga studio run by white queer folks in a predominantly BIPOC neighborhood. On the surface everyone was very trans and queer inclusive – there some QTBIPOC teachers and students. We did workshops together and referred clients back and forth. Months later in response to increasing coverage of police brutality, I find out the studio owners started organizing “fireside chats”...with cops. The idea was that friendly chats between BIPOC and cops would resolve the violence. The message was that BIPOC needed to be more civilized, that this was about an interpersonal dispute rather than institutional, white supremacist violence. We know that BIPOC, especially Black trans women, are particularly targeted by cops. Gender affirming care also intersects with abolition and racial justice. This was just one grievance at the studio wrapped up in an environment of “love and light”.
At the time I was so hungry for a space that promised queer and trans safety I ignored my initial cringe at these white queers teaching yoga. There is so much nuance involved in understanding what gender affirming care ought to be. We are much more than a tangle of genitalia and hormones disconnected from experiences of race. If we choose not to actively engage in these nuances, they are already at play in how we participate in each other's wellness and what we are complicit with. I look forward to envision what our care could be, but I also look back. My ancestors thrived before Capitalism, colonization, and the medical industrial complex and they also made me.
Decolonizing needs to happen at all aspects of medicine including how we fund or do energy exchange for it. I use the term “energy exchange” because money is is a relatively new way of exchange for labor and goods, but it is not the only way. Prior to colonization, the Philippines did not have Capitalism. Healthcare was not dependent on extractive monetary transactions that focused on individual financial responsibility. Reciprocity was practiced through gift giving and being in relation to one another. Healers had a divine responsibility to care for the community and they, in turn, were cared for by the community.
The introduction of Capitalism and White European and American culture to the Philippines brought a disconnect with how traditional medicine was valued and accessed. The expectation of traditional healers to care for the community without monetary payment remained, but this existed within the context of a money-based system where most people lived in poverty. An ecosystem of traditional, mutual care was completely disrupted.
Decolonizing our energy exchanges for medicine is more complicated than replicating traditional customs – we can't just go back to how things were. We need to be in dialogue with our traditions and our current context. For me that has looked like the following:
I'm sitting here today writing as I vacillate in and out of anxiety mode. This isn't about forcing myself to be productive through an unstable mood. I want to share what this is like because:
There are times in my life when depression and anxiety immobilize me. As I write this, I am trying to record audio for my podcast. I keep hitting “pause” so I can hyperventilate and cry. My body is shaking. My heart races. My perception of time is weird. I'll blink and all of a sudden an hour is gone – I call this time travelling. Primm, my ESA dog, pokes me with her nose to take me for walks and remind me of our routines (including her feeding schedule). She slowly paws my hand if I'm stuck doom scrolling.
When I am in this emotional place, I can't take care of anyone, let alone myself. How can one work as a healer then? Doing healing work is so intimate, vulnerable, and sacred. Acting without being present and grounded could hurt someone (even natural medicine can have side effects). So, if I am off my game, what can I do? I can be human. I can give myself all the care I might give a patient. I can regularly reflect on what my capacity and boundaries are so that I can be competent in my work.
I need ongoing work on self awareness so that I am not frequently surprised by a “sudden” dip in mood. It took me a while to realize that I often experience emotions somatically. For example, I may not think I feel anxiuos, but my digestion may have been off for a week or I won't have slept in days. I have learned to be expansive about how I anxiety and depression feel. It allows me more agency in my response. It's time for Choose-Your-Own-Adventure:
What has been humbling during the pandemic is re-learning my relationship to mental health and my role as a healing practitioner. The collective emotional strain is real. The primary, secondary, tertiary trauma and grief is real. My threshold for feeling “okay” are not the same. My recovery times are not the same. My prevention is not the same. What I have access to is not the same.
What I am continuing to learn is that my relationship to my wellness is dynamic and it always has been. My body, mind, heart, and spirit fluctuate, respond, expand, and contract. Medicine cannot be effectively practiced in a static, non-adaptive way. In order to show up for others, I need to be engaged in my own healing actively and consistently. It is not about being perfectly well, but being informed and held. Being in relationship with my limits means I can practice medicine more safely and compassionately within an ever-changing context.
[This is written from personal experience and is not medical advice or therapy. I am not a mental health therapist. Please seek the support you need if you are struggling <3]
Whenever you walk into a Filipinx household, the first question you are are asked is, “Did you eat?” Food is incredibly important to us. Whenever I am on the phone with my dad, he wants to know: What am I eating? What did I eat yesterday? What am I going to eat later? Sometimes when he misses me, he just sends me photos of his cooking. Food is the language in which we communicate and show affection. Food is one of my most important forms of medicine – a way to care for my mind, body, and soul. The effect of colonization on me as a child was so strong that for a time, I forgot all of that.
One of my earliest memories from elementary school was being bullied for my food. The nourishment my family provided for me became stinky and weird. Some days I would walk over to the trash can and dump my entire lunchbox into it. I wanted sandwiches and Lunchables, Carpi Suns, and Hi-C juice boxes like the white kids. Internalized racism taught me to reject something that gave me strength.
On a public health level, Filipinx suffer disproportionately high rates of chronic diseases, such as heart disease and diabetes, that are diet-related. Much of this is due to industrialized and Westernized food systems. Traditional foods with fresh vegetables and fish are replaced with highly processed products containing white flour, white sugar, and preservatives. This is true for many BIPOC groups.
Filipinx have a tradition of ancestor veneration. Our venerated ancestors, sometimes referred to as anito or ninuno, watch our for us and protect us. One of the ways to honor them is to give food offerings, atang. White culture not only distances us from feeding ourselves with life-promoting traditional food, it distances us from caring for our ancestors as well. Consuming food is a way for us to feed our ancestors. They no longer have corporeal form except through the body of their descendants. I am an accumulation of their lives and genetic material and food is a way for me to honor the survival and sacrifices of those who cam before me. Consuming traditional food is a way of taking up space and reclaiming history, nourishment, and pride. It is a transformation of shame and pain.
I find it offensive when white culture exploits stinky or “bizarre” food as entertainment. It is a novelty and a cheap thrill, a game of “I dare you...” This consumption is rooted in appropriation and Orientalism instead of a deep cultural appreciation. (I considered adding links to Youtube videos to cite sources, but it makes me too angry. You're on your own for that.) A chef friend once told me that cooking for someone is one of the most intimate activities – the food literally becomes a part of the other person on a cellular level. What an insidious way for racism to teach BIPOC to reject themselves on at that same level.
We have all heard the term “food is medicine”. If we are to decolonize medicine, we need to look at how we eat, what we eat, and who gets to eat. So, what can we do about this? Here are some of my suggestions:
What are your ideas on decolonizing medicine through decolonizing food?
Image: several kamote (sweet potato) plants regrown from ONE kamote on my deck.
Today I went for a hike in the woods and had a triggering, recurring experience: white runners, unmasked, forcing me off a path during the COVID-19 pandemic. They are the fast zombies of the here and now – mindlessly running and potentially harming people they should be in community with. Is this rude? Yes, but that is not the whole of it. What I am actually seeing here is a replication of colonial mentality on a micro, mundane scale.
Hiking is supposed to be a pandemic-safe wellness activity – open air, easy distancing, exercise, etc. On a magical and medicinal level, even as an indoor kid, I think it is important to be out in nature and develop a relationship with it. But...who actually gets to take up that space and at who's cost? This is where it starts to look like a small scale replica of colonization. Right at the get go, everyone that I encountered on today's hike was white. In past instances where I was run off the sidewalk or trail it has always been white runners (sometimes cyclists) with no mask. It is not just about rudeness when there is an obvious pattern and repetitive power dynamic. It is a centering of individual need over greater collective wellness. It is an entitlement to space and disregard of who might be harmed in the taking of that space.
I have tried many different responses to the white runners with no great success. Today was avoidance. If I see them coming, I grab my dog and get as far off the trail as I can ASAP (cuz THEY DON'T SLOW DOWN). Most of the time they don't even acknowledge me as I stand awkwardly in a shrub. Occasionally, they'll thank me for moving out of their way and then get upset when I do not respond to their chipper space taking. I am going to assume that the white runners are not concerned with getting infected because people like me move out of the way since the alternative is an even bigger violation of our safety.
Why don't I just stand up for myself? For those who are closer to me I am normally very direct in my communication. Well, I have learned that trying to verbally establish boundaries with the white runners leads to violence – angry yelling, mean mugging, or completely ignoring the MINIMUM 6 feet distance and being close enough to rub elbows with me. Like fast zombies, I can't reason with them. My appeals to their human decency don't really sink in.
Passive aggressive tactics I've tried include coughing really loudly (into my mask + elbow) or yelling that I or my partner might be sick so that they have to go around me (this was before it was easy to get tested). This has actually been the most successful way of getting white runners to stay away from me since it seems to jar people into the reality that they might be harmed. Even though we should all practice universal precautions anyways, I hate using this survival tactic because it is alarmist and costs even more of my energy.
I am also someone who is read as Asian. I am also read as queer, sometimes trans/nonbinary. Let's sit with what it means right now for my safety to at best inconvenience and at worst horribly offend a fast, athletic white person working out whatever Type A, colonizer, white fragility nonsense they are carrying around on their run.
Additionally, can we talk about consent? I know that people are exercising different safety protocols around COVID-19, but shouldn't we assume, until proven otherwise, more conservative distancing and masking? I do not consent to be within 6 feet of people who's risk levels I don't know. I do not consent to endangering other people, even white runner zombies, in very avoidable situations.
These are all aspects of colonization: taking of land and resources, centering colonizer needs and desires at the expense of others (human and nonhuman), disregard or outright violence towards people deemed lesser than, etc...
Are my encounters with the white runner zombies a direct physical assault? No, in the sense that it is not an obvious, severe form of violence where I am at risk of immediate death. It absolutely does not compare to larger scale assaults like murdering babaylan and institutionalizing the Catholic Church in the Philippines. These encounters, however, are a risk of COVID-19 for me and anyone who I am podded with. There are real, tangible effects on my body. Here is what I notice when I have these encounters:
Why is reflecting on incidences like this important to me? Identifying colonization and white supremacy in our lives is crucial to promoting collective wellness.